Wish I could say it breaks my heart like you did in the beginning.

This post is a very controversial post... Yes, that's right I'm going to dedicate my post to the amazing talent which was Amy Winehouse. 


I am not here to comment on her personal life. Although, I would like to point out there is a HUGE difference between, taking drugs and taking an overdoes etc. And to remind everyone that we still do not know her cause of death. In conclusion to this, I do not think it is fair to be so judgemental as it was her own life. Which also ties in with my previous post, you don't know the struggle someone has gone through, or goes through. Everyone handles things different. Her career was being a "musician" and "singer" nothing more, nothing less. 


She was unmistakeably one of the most amazing talents in British history. Her rich, soulful, smooth and distinctive voice came as such a shock from her petit and fragile frame. Amy's most famous work was that of Back To Black, released in 2006. Which lead to SIX grammy nominations, winning five out of the six. Including Best Artist, she has won various other impressive awards such as -  the Ivor Novello award three times and Best Contemporary Song, musically and lyrically for Stronger Than Me. 


It is so strange to think she will never grace us with her presence on stage or be creating anymore of her emotional and poignant songs. It is such a shame and she will be sorely missed now and in the future. But I am sure her music will live on regardless. 


I am currently listening to, Frank & Back To Black - combination which I have just bought off of iTunes. Ah she was just incredible. If you don't own both albums I can't stress how much I love them and how good they are. Will definitely be my summer 2011 albums. 


I'll leave you with one of her quotes, which, basically sums her view on life up! Haha... 




"My justification is that most people my age spend a lot of time thinking about what they’re going to do for the next five or ten years. The time they spend thinking about their life, I just spend drinking. " - Amy Winehouse


Off on holiday, the time has come at last. So shan't be blogging till I am back and bronzed (fingers crossed!) 


Hope you have a good one. 


B x

Trust issues.

Everyone has them. Some worse then others. Some more able to relate to then others. Some more rational then others. Either way, they're there for a reason and aren't going anywhere fast, if anywhere. 


They seem to be able to ruin any relationship. No matter how close or strong you are to each other. One way or another they eat away at you, taint your view on EVERYTHING. But, they are there for a reason and this reason - to protect you I suppose? Due to past events or past situations. Right? Or do we just use that as an excuse to be self-centered and to 'blame' your insecurities on something other then your crazy, unable to let you have a nondramatic relationship for once mind? "It's my trust issues that make me this way, it's my insecurities. I can't help it!"


Everyone loves a bit of drama, you can deny it as much as you want, but that's the bottom line. Everyone loves to know peoples business or to comment, judge and criticise how they handled a situation. We all forget that other people may have had life just as tough as us or even worse then us. I think if we all remembered this then we would be all together a more sympathetic and understanding society. But we never will. Maybe we're all too self-obsessed? Or maybe life goes too fast for us to spare a moment, emotion, thought for others? Who knows. But I try to make a conscious effort to care more... I know I don't do it all the time. So that might be the answer? Be more conscious of others. 


The inspiration to write this about trust issues was of course Drake - I added his new song to my hyperster so enjoy! 


I changed my blog a little, more 'homie' now don't you think? Not sure if I like it... We'll see. 


It's quite unnerving how well people know me sometimes, I wish some didn't know me as well as they do. Hmmm. How to get around that? Pretend to have 'changed' or don't let them know they know you as well as they do! 


SUN came out today. For long enough that I could attend the races today with three crazy friends! Was different to say the least haha. 


Not long till holiday - yipeeeee! 


Have a good one. 


B x

There's always that one person that will always have your heart. You never see it coming cause you're blinded from the start.

I WATCHED HARRY POTTER, and it was amazing, absolutely amazing. But I'm so saddened that Harry Potter is no more. *big sigh*


What is going on with the weather? I cannot wait to be disappearing soon from England, to have a much deserved holiday to Portugal. Where my day will be consisting of laying on a sunbed till sunset. Eeeep. The thought now makes me so excited!! 


Don't you love going on holiday? Who doesn't? It's so nice to get away from all the problems and dilemmas of home, everyday life. Makes you feel missed when you get home and people tell you they've missed you etc. Going on holiday gives you time, time to do whatever you want to do, when you want to do it, with the people you want to do it with. Ah. I keep getting little waves of excitement. Not long now. 


Don't you hate it when you manage to upset yourself. Like, when you play mind games with yourself. Make yourself think about things that are bound to effect your mood or how you view a situation, and not in a good way. You replay a past event or think about a past conversation which then, in return taints how you feel. Do you ever miss the past? Blahhh. I don't think it helps that I feel quite poorly today either. And the fact work was a nightmare, sale time is NOT fun. So much mess. Aaaah. 


So to feel better I'm in bed, having a hot chocolate watching good ol' CSI. An early night is what I need I think. Or my holiday? 


Another think to add to my summer excitement is that my Alexander McQueen sunglasses arrived today <3 can't wait to wear them in the sun. I'll upload a photo ASAP.


Hope summer is treating you all well. 


B x 

I want women to cry and pour out their heart for me and tell me how much they hate it when they apart from me.

Aubrey Drake Graham. It's been five years since this man has graced us - rap loving, r'n'b obsessives and soul singing fanatics with his unique yet familiar style of music.


Drake's first mix tape was created in 2006, Room For Improvement, in his bedroom. Which was available through his official website and myspace. He went on to create another in 2007 called Comeback Season. His third became an official mix tape which went on sale in 2009 called So Far Gone. 


So, the reason why I am dedicating my blog post to him. Well, quite honestly, because I love him. (I know you do too I.S)


He grew up in Toronto, US with his mother. His parents divorced when he was at the tender age of five, which he said effected him deeply, “I had to become a man very quickly and be the backbone for a woman who I love with all my heart, my mother." 
In result of this so many of his songs touch on his parents divorce and how he feels, or has felt about it. In songs such as - Fireworks, Give Ya etc. 


Growing up Aubrey wasn't only interested in music or poetry, he also loved to act. Landing a big break in the television series Degrassi: The Next Generation where he played Jimmy Brooks. His role then ended when Jimmy graduated in 2009, this is when Aubrey began to take music much more seriously, and when he realised it was what he wanted to pursue a career in. 


He was then signed to Young Money Entertainment at the young age of 22. His first album Thank Me Later came out in the summer of 2010 and reached number one on the billboard 200. The album since then has now gone platinum. 


I don't think there is one single song in his album that I don't like. Or in actual fact that I don't know the words to. His songs manage to fit my mood and somehow seem to sum up my feelings, or my past feelings. 


It's not just his music, his whole demeanor in interviews is so down to earth and grounded. He is honest with himself and with his fans, which is highlighted throughout his songs. 


I cannot wait for his new album to come out in October! Woo. The count-down begins. 


I shall leave you with a few of my favourite Drake quotes...
1. “Live without pretending, love without depending, listen without defending, speak without offending.”
2. “It’s impossible for you to lose me…because you never had me.”
3. “Good weed, white wine, I come alive in the night time…”
4. “A woman hands me a blank notepad and says read my book it’s called Everything Men Know About Women”
5. “I need you to rescue me from my destiny. I’m tryna live right and give you whatever’s left of me.”
6. “And you ain’t even gotta ask twice. You can have my heart or we can share it like the last slice.”

7. I say “fuck that nigga that you think you found. And since you picked up I know he’s not around”

8. "If he’s dumb enough to walk away, be smart enough to let him go."

So now my rant about Drake is over. I hope you enjoyed it, haha. 

Hope you have a good one. 

B x

ONLY 34 DAYS!

I pop bottles cos I bottle my emotions.

SUMMER. summer. summer. 

I am so excited. Summer is definitely starting to get into full swing.

Light evenings become normal, sunglasses come out, pale pasty white legs appear, summery playlists are created on your iPods, painted toe nails come out in the flip flops, my puppy starts sleeping in my bath room on the tiles, the outdoor area of cafes are always packed, windows of cars are always down and you can hear their ridiculously loud music playing, there is no need for me to carry a scarf in my bag - notice i say scarf not umbrella! Even though it's summer we're still in England!!

Even though I do love summer, I am deep down a winter person I think. I love over-sized patterned jumpers, warm boots, scarfs, earmuffs, gloves and not to mention everyone getting ready for the buzz of Christmas.

Summer always seems to go so fast, where as winter seems to be around forever!

However, at the moment I am SO looking forward to my summer holidays away. Oh and the festival season, the attire especially. Eeeeee. Everyone just seems so much content and elated in summer, it's weird to think that a season can do that to you. I would say the weather adds to this feeling, but usually British summers aren't something to have faith in to contribute to that. Although June was promising. We'll see I suppose...

On the note of summer - I got a very festival sheek hat if I do say so myself from All Saints. Their festival boutique is amazing and some really reasonable priced stuff, here take a look

http://www.allsaints.com/women/festival_boutique/

Hope you're all having a good start to summer.

B x

ONLY 35DAYS!

And I said that's fine, but your the only one that knows I lied.

Well, I feel like I haven't blogged for ages. So much has happened since I last blogged, some good, some bad.


Good - visiting Newcastle university with one of my best friends, and absolutely falling in love with the place. Definitely my first choice at the moment.
Another good thing that's happened is I have officially finished school for summer WOOHOO. Weird to think this time in just 360 days I will have finished school forever, and HOPEFULLY (fingers triple crossed) I will be preparing myself for an amazing summer and university.


There are numerous other good things that have happened over the course of the last few days, especially last night going to see ED SHEERAN with two very close friend - at Scala in Kings Cross. We watched two warm-up acts which were awesome too, Ryan Keen (who is SO cute!) and Lester Clayton. Who I seriously recommend listening to, so quirky and bring something new to music.
Ed was unquestionably one of the most incredible performers I've ever seen, his voice is so lovely, and so unexpected by just looking at him. Not to mention loving all his heart-felt songs which are all written from past experiences. Ah I just love him, he is definitely my new obsession! 


Other not so good events did arise over the past week or so, but I shan't go into detail about them. All lessons learnt I think I can safely say. But not to mention that a lot of disappointment came from these lessons from so called "friends". But hey ho, that's life... 


I'm so excited to be on summer, even though it doesn't feel quite yet like summer. Need the weather to warm up and then I think it will. 


Hope you like my little playlist thing! All my current favourite chilled songs.


Have a good one. 


B x