The sun doesn't always shine, I'm stuck in a solar eclipse.

I shall start by apologizing as i haven't blogged for a whole week, just been so busy with various things, mainly school work and my drama practical exam. Which is just before Easter so we're all trying to cram in practices, learn lines, find props/costumes etc. Can't wait for it all to be over! Only a few more weeks... Aaah, so scary. 


The past week or so has been a good one if i recall correctly, i think everything seems to be slowly but surely falling into place, at last. It's so true all you need is to be patience and everything will smooth itself out - i realized talking about things doesn't necessarily make you forget about the past situations or upsets, but it sometimes helps to show that you've acknowledged those past occurrences and have moved on, or at least tried to. It allows you to see mistakes and regrets, but also to learn from them, I've also been thinking that even though you may regard someone highly in your life and have high expectations of them - a lot of them time, to our upset they don't regard us in such a higher fashion. Although as i earlier stated i feel it's been a good week and everything seems to be smoothing itself out, i can't help but forget the disappointment i have felt also. 
It's sad to think that this feeling hasn't come from someone i don't particularly like, or care about, it hasn't come from someone i don't spend much time with or talk to. It has come from people that i feel especially close to and choose to spend time with and talk to about all the things under the sun. I know, i know, i sound like a parent who's teenager has been out all night drinking and then decided to come home and vomited all over the cream carpet, when they said they were popping to a friend's house, or something of a similar event, saying that "I'm very disappointed in your behaviour and i expected more from you..."  But it just shows, that you can't be so quick to assume or judge or claim to know someone, as i promise that sooner or later they'll do something to make you feel disappointed or hurt. I'm not saying I'm a saint I'm not by any stretch of the imagination, i just hope that i wouldn't do the same things to make someone disappointed in me. Right, rant over. 


Anywho, summer is most definitely on its way and I'm so ready for it (apart from the hurdles i have to overcome before i get there e.g. A LEVELS! Aaaah) I'm already preparing my summer holiday and making a list of what i want to do before it's over. I think getting my VFEST ticket definitely sped up the transition of winter to summer mind set. Eeeeek. 


WEEK HURRY UP - I've got a very exciting weekend planned ahead, which i am looking forward to very much. 


I'll try and blog a lot more this week as i have missed you all. Hehe. Anyway, English literature essay calls my name... BLAH to work. 


Hope you have a good one. 


B x

I wish that I could have this moment for life...

WOW. This weekend, most definitely, hands down reached my expectations and MORE... I cannot describe how good it was. Friday was lovely to see everyone at my friend's house party, i love house parties so relaxed and it's weird how in a different environment to school/college etc. people are so different, good different of course! Then SATURDAY was ah, i was so worried it was going to be a let down but it was like i said, the complete opposite, the music was amazing and the bunch of people i went with were the icing on the cake. 


I came home smelling of beer, no thanks to Jack and another guy i was stood near decided to throw his beer, i never understand the concept of throwing drinks at concerts? Why? You either waste your beer or piss someone off! Hmmm. So i was not a happy girl, but then got over it and carried on singing at the top of my voice - I'm now paying for this, my throat is killing me. I love the mentality of standing watching a band with thousands of people, whether that's at a festival or at a concert like last night, everyone is so much more relaxed and less fired up and moody, for example last night me and my dear friend got separated from the rest of our group - as we couldn't cope in the mosh pit anymore, so we stood at the side made a few friends we had a dance with then we went to the bar and made even more friends who we spent the rest of the night with. It's awesome how people do that, you just meet someone and then BAM there you are spending the evening together dancing, singing, laughing, enjoying yourself. We finally got home after the panic of nearly missing our train, makeup down/off our faces, smelling of alcohol, sweat, cigarette smoke and damp as it started raining... Overall it was an amazing night, filled with so much laughter, even people listening to our conversation about blaming each other for nearly missing the train were laughing haha, it definitely lived upto my expectations! Hehe. 


Now back to reality, doing work and getting ready to go back to school as i have a drama practical rehearsal (not in the mood especially as my voice is disappearing rapidly) ah this lack of sleep feeling that i seem to be feeling much to often really needs to go, or i won't be able to cope through the week!!


I miss last summer so much, the water fights in GG's garden and eating ice cream with my favourite blondes, ah, why does everything have to change? Why can't we go back in time - someone better create a time machine ASAP... *sigh*


Hope you all had an awesome weekend too, whatever you were doing! Only 3 weeks or something like that 'till Easter! Woohoo. 


Hope you have a good one. 


B x


PS. How cute is this PostSecret, i'm gonna write in my secret soon... Well, maybe.