I'm just looking, I'm not buying, I'm just looking, it keeps me smiling.

A random post... I thought all those things were cute.

So, I curled my hair, maybe too much? I look a little like a poodle, but love it all the same.

I think my posts are so short, cos I'm so happy at the moment CRINGE, yes I know. Haha. Hope you're all feeling happy too?

Christmas round the corner, still not feeling Christmassy. Mmmmm.

Oh, I made a tumblr, more time to waste yaya. Revision is a dick, blaghhh. 

Hope you have a good one.

B x

PS. good things come to those who wait, I promise!

I say I'd rather be with you but you are not around. So I'mma call somebody up and see if they be down.

“If ever there is tomorrow when we're not together.. There is something you must always remember. You are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. But the most important thing is, even if we're apart.. I'll always be with you.” - Winnie the Pooh


You can't beat disney. 


Happy birthday best friend! 


Off to wrap presents. 


Have a good one.


B x

If you don't love me, someone else will, dont you ever get too comfortable.

So, Christmas is nearly here. Am I the only person who isn't feeling Christmassy? I don't know what it is? I wish I did feel Christmassy...

Revision has started, such a little bitch. But I know I've got to do it, which sucks so much, I actually found somewhere I can revise, I think. Quite exciting, hope I do well. Aaaah. Fingers crossed.

I had one of my best friend's 18th - ended with a bang and not a good bang, I had my speech all prepared, but didn't get to do it sadly. Too much drama irrupting. By writing the speech it showed and reminded me of all the amazing things we had done together, from morning runs, dog sitting to our yearly holidays and helping each other with boy trouble. Money really can't buy those things, it's actually crazy how much we've done in five years. Wow. Can't wait for her to do a speech at my 21st hehe.

Talking about time, I'm excited for the future, I think recently I've been reassured. One of the best feelings is choosing and deciding to be with someone in the future, talking about what you want to do together and are going to do together. A gratifying feeling, hehe, can't wait. Hope all goes to plan, you never can tell.

I miss my iPhone SO much, hate the stupid BlackBerry. ARGH. Don't buy the Bold 9900 - battery life is shit and it freezes.

I feel content, I haven't felt like this for such a long time. Dare I say it, I'm happy. Really happy.

Right, got my philosophy tutor now, TWO hours, aaaaaah. Wish me luck!

Have a good one.

B x

I was happy in the haze of a drunken hour. But heaven knows, I'm miserable now.

This time in ONE WEEK I'll be on my Christmas holidays, wow. I just can't get over how fast this term has gone, a little too fast if you ask me. Wish it had gone slower, so much slower. I'm dreading the Christmas holiday, for many reasons but mainly due to the amount of work I'm going to have to do over the 3 and a half weeks we have. Ah, blah, but if I mess up my exams I can only blame myself... WAAA.

On a lighter, better note, I've got all five offers from UCAS for next year. Which is such a relief, I now have choices, if I manage to pull these exams off. So less pressure there. Next year, the bittersweet year. We'll see how it all goes.

I love the fact I've got so close to my now best friends, I think it gets to a point where you make a decision on who you want to be friends with, who matters and who really doesn't. Friendship isn't a one way street and more so recently I've realized this. People are in your life for a reason, you should remember that, whether because they want to be, or whether you choose them to be. However, losing friends and friendships is such a hard and unsettling feeling. Always think it's their loss too, not just yours! Honestly, I promise.

Missing someone, a funny thing, even if you see someone everyday, it doesn't stop you missing them when you're apart. For some reason or another when you haven't seen them that day or week, it can almost be a bigger impact then one of someone who doesn't see the one they miss for months etc. Due to the routine and familiarity, it's so nice when you just love spending time with someone. Did that make sense? Probably not haha. Bottom line, I missed you today.

Got an 18th birthday dinner tonight, quite excited. But alas, another yes, another, clothing crisis. When will I ever learn? Planning outfits really REALLY decreasing the stress that I'm going to face in an hour or so. Oh B, silly, silly, B.

Also, can anyone recommened me some heated rollers, I'm desperate for some, and I want some good ones. Hehe.

Hope you have a good one.

B x

I HATE DECISIONS.

Mirror on the wall, here we are again. Through my rise and fall, you've been my only friend.

I'm currently researching for my A2 drama piece, it's stimulus is PostSecret. Something that you probably already know I love. It's been a harrowing evening going through and researching, finding out, and judging people via their secrets. Okay, maybe judging isn't the right word, well, commenting and empathising about them.

The style of our piece is creative adaptation, meaning that we can take for example, a PostSecret and develop, adapt and create a story about the person/secret, and the meaning and emotion behind it. I'm enjoying it, a lot, it's just - mmmm, difficult as there is no limit on what you can do, sometimes leading us to have billion pound worth ideas haha. I couldn't think of any other people I'd rather be doing this with, my group is just fantastic!

Whilst I've been traipsing the internet and viewing countless amounts of secrets, I feel, almost, rude. These people have opened up, bared their personal, intimate, secret and here I am, looking at them. They're so beautiful - all of them, and it makes you think, everyone has a secret, EVERYONE and to me, it's really reassuring. Everyone has something heartbreaking that's happened to them, yet we're all so quick to judge and hurt one another. Hmmmm. Well, that's life I suppose.

If anyone has used creative adaptation or has any ideas, please let me know. I'd love to hear how other people used the style and what they did with it.

“The children most broken by the world become the adults most likely to change it.”

—

Frank Warren

Two Christmas presents down... Too many to go. Hoping the next three weeks go VERY slowly. I definitely need to invest in a winter coat too, and wearing more clothes. Hehe.

Have a good one.

B x