Lipstick on the glass.

Well, I haven't blogged for ages! Sad times. But I think you'll be pleased to know - I don't have much to complain about. Hehe. Makes a change, doesn't it?

Everything is kinda like, smooth runnings currently. I've got three offers from UCAS so far, all of which I am estatic about!! Got both my first two choices - but then again it's not just getting offers it's the grades I need to get there. Ah just, a relief that somewhere wants me. 

I'm just feeling well, happy, content, satisfied at the moment. Regardless of some of the drama going on in other parts of my life, but they somehow seem to be irrelevant to me generally. I think I've come to the conclusion, no matter how hard you try to make things work, or how badly you want something, doesn't mean you're gonna get it, or that someone wants the same as you. Sad realisation yes, but I wish I had make this realisation earlier, would have saved on the mess it made. People fuck about, plain and simple, people fuck you up, plain and simple, but then at the end of the day it takes YOU to stand up and walk away. For you to decide what you want to happen, be in control. 

So that's exactly what I've done, become the bigger person. I realised I stressed and worried about things that, yeah I could have done something about, but I didn't and subconsciously I knew what I was doing. So I'm done. Hopefully I've made the right choice, only time will tell... 


Ah this philosophy essay is so long, so much to do. The ontological argument is ah, effort, why did I choose this subject? So hard. Makes me think too much! So Drake is helping me through, gosh my blog is basically a Drake shrine. Haha. 

I'm not even gonna start on Christmas. All I have to say is - WAY TOO SOON. 


Hope you're all well. 


Have a good one. 


B x

Jealousy is just love and hate at the same time.

It's here, finally at long, long, long, LONG last!

Drake's album, Take Care is here. I.S and I have been anticipating this album for such a long time. Felt like Christmas came early, and YES it has most DEFINITELY lived upto my expectations and hers, I think?! Hehe.

His lyrics are stunning as always. If you don't have the album I cannot recommend it enough.

Blah, I'm ill - yes I know I always seem to be ill. But I am genuinely ill :( waaaa. I wanna get better, being poorly is SO boring.

I didn't realize really till now, how the past really, really effects your future. I mean more emotionally, like if you've been hurt in a certain way, you now, naturally protect yourself more? But sometimes that's not necessarily the best thing to do. It sucks, everyone has secrets, everyone has something others don't know about them. But, I guess some secrets aren't worth sharing, right?

"Live without pretending, love without depending, listen without defending, speak without offending." - Drake

I thought that was a good quote to leave with... 

Have a good one.

B x  

PS. My favourite is "Look What You've Done" - give it a listen! Hope you enjoyyyyy. 

But believe I remember it all.

Yes, that's right I'm now an adult! WOOHOO.

I know it sounds ridiculous but when I was younger I never thought I'd make it to 18. Am I the only one who thought that? I can't quite get my head round it - I'm a proper grown up, well on paper maybe. Hehe. I had such a fantastic day, a big thank you to everyone who contributed to my day - even if it was just by a text. Birthdays are so lovely, a time to make you feel loved and appreciated, even if it's not sincere. It's nice sometimes to pretend. 

Now, down to busy - UCAS is a bitch, options are even worse, the amount of things I need to do before Christmas is a joke! But, hopefully I'll be able to do it. Finger cross. Have faith me in, as I have hardly any in myself! I just can't wait for this time next year, the stress of all of this will be gone. Yes, granted I'll have a different type of stress probably - but this is making me go insane. 

I've been listening to Drake's - Club Paradise religiously this and last week. Didn't realise how much I like it, the lyrics seem appropriate for life at the moment, "It’s crazy all the emotions forgot in a year" - When I think about last year, or even the year before, I never thought things would be like this. Losing contact with people I thought I wouldn't and yes I know life gets in the way, but a little text or letter wouldn't go a miss. You can't say I haven't tried. But you know what, what's the point anymore? We've all got bigger fish to fry... 

Cannot wait for Snow Patrol's new album to come out on 17th! Aaaah. Love love love them. I've missed them. Even though a lot of their music is quite depressive. I like depressive if you haven't already guessed. Haha. 

LOVE YOU I.S - luncheon soon please? 

Life goes on... Right?

Off to do some work now. Argh. Please someone give me some reassurance. 

Have a good one. 

B x