You drink as much as me, and I get drunk a lot.

I just realised my WHOLE blog is becoming some, Ed Sheeran shrine haha. Everything is to do with him. As you can probably tell, I'm OBSESSED with him and his new album. Just, ah, words cannot describe how good it is. And I don't know anyone who can't relate to at least one of his songs. Even though it may be a little depressing, you will appreciate the beauty of his voice and the lyrics. 


So, what's been happening with me? The answer, not a lot. The week did not start off on a good note. 8am, Monday morning, after my 100000000th outfit change (in that mood, NOTHING LOOKS NICE ON ME, WHY, WHY, WHY AM I SO FAT AND UNATTRACTIVE?!) so was not in the best of moods, wasn't feeling too well and hadn't had my morning necessity, caffeine. My dearest mother, bless her, decided to start yelling at me as we were going to be late for me going back to school. Which then progressed into a shouting and screaming match, all before 8.30 in the morning. The car journey, well, you could have cut the atmosphere with a knife. Awkward to say the least... But today wasn't too bad, the week seems to be going quite slowly, waaa. Hurry up weekend! 


A big HAPPY BIRTHDAY to I.S - she turns 18 today woo! <3


Don't you love being close with someone, as in someone that you weren't close with. Who you're now close with, someone you share everything with, that you're so open with. It's so comforting when you become friends with someone like that, you're just yourself with. They know your ins and outs, and are still there 24/7 no matter what. I've recently become so much closer with a few people, and it makes me feel so excited and flattered I suppose, that they feel so comfortable with you. Sometimes hearing stories about how others have treated people you love makes you want to scream - why are people so cruel to others? The moral of today, always say how you feel at the time... Otherwise it eats away at you. Not healthy for you! 


Anyway... To keep the Ed theme here, I'll leave you with one of my favourite quotes from his song, Kiss Me - "My heart's against your chest, your lips pressed in my neck. I'm falling for your eyes, but they don't know me yet. And with this feeling I'll forget, I'm in love now."

And I know you love Shrek, cause we've watched it 12 times. And maybe we're hoping for a fairytale too?

Here I am. Haven't blogged for ages. Come to think of it, I haven't done anything I like for ages really. Been so busy, year 13 is so intense. So hard. Not coping too well at the moment. Am currently writing my drama notes and thinking about re-takes, making me want to cry. Moral of the story, I should have worked my f*cking ars* off to year 12... But what's done is done now. Argh. 


So my life, hmmmm. It's yeah, not very exciting. Currently thinking about last nights antics, a very good friend of mine had her 18th birthday party, got a little out of hand in places. But was a very good night overall. The outcome of the night - relationships are so hard. Like WOW. I always knew they were, first hand and through others, but I swear they just seem to get harder and harder the older you become. There is only so much you can give to another person, right? This is when you need to be with someone who is similar to you, not someone who is opposite. Whoever said opposites attract was chatting actual sh*t - seriously. 
History always effects the future, no matter how hard you try. So sometimes your relationship is doomed from the beginning, even though you hope it's not. Sometime the best thing you can do is try and if it doesn't change at least you can put your hand on your heart and say "I tried with all I had!" - rather then letting the relationship collapse in front of you. End it on a high, right? Easier said then done. 


Am absolutely shattered, went to bed at some ungodly hour, then went to the gym. Bad move B! Ah. So am going to try and finish these notes, then tidy my room and sleep. Can't wait to get into my bed (with my puppy), I have an unhealthy relationship with it. 


Just think - what were thinks like this time last year?... Scary to think hey, so much has changed. But as the year goes on it feels like nothing is changing. So, do you miss this time last year? Interesting isn't it. So, what's this time next year going to be like? Exciting. 


Off to finish my work. Gave my blog a revamp again! Hehe. 


Have a good one. 


B x


PS. Ed Sheeran's album + is the most amazing thing ever. Give Lego House and Kiss Me a listen to, makes me teary eyed! I know I'm a sap. Enjoyyyyy. x

Tears don't mean you're losing.

You know that feeling you get when you know you've got to do something, that you don't want to do. I've got that SO bad right now. I don't know why? Or for what?... Maybe it's school? But I don't usually get this feeling before I start school. It's weird. 

I feel this summer went too fast, so much I wanted to accomplish and I didn't. But then again on the other hand, things arose that I never thought would in my wildest dreams. Some good, others the furthest thing from good. It's weird to think, that when things are going on around you - you don't really notice a change. But then when you reflect on the past year, month or so you realize SO much has changed. Gosh. 

BLAH to school. BLAH. Blah. 

Bought Lil Wayne's new album, which I am currently listening to. I'll let you guys know what I think of it. I have very high hopes! Hehe. Love Tha Carter... 

Ah, well, I can only have hope for this next year. The last year of school. Which is SO scary, but SO exciting. I cannot wait to leave school, ever get the feeling you've grown out of school? 

Missing you I.S 

H's 18th tomorrow night, on a school night. This is dedication, a good friend right here. Haha. 

Hope you have a good one. 

B x

I have to live with both my selves as best I may.

I cannot believe August is over. Where has this summer gone? I know we always say that about summer, that it "flew by" but seriously, this year it has disappeared.

Went birthday shopping the other day, even though my birthday isn't until October 28th (put it in your diary!!) - was so lovely to spend the day with just mummy and I. Went to Harrods for lunch and a look for a nice present I like. Found some gorgeous jewelery and a watch I LOVE, so fingers crossed. Then popped into Burberry to look at their new collection, definitely need to start saving if I want any of their stuff.

I have a new obsession, well not new, I've loved her for ages! Everyone says my sister looks like her, ARGH so jealous. She was a sex-icon. Known for her 19inch waist. Along with her strong view on animals rights. And is absolutely gorgeous... If you haven't guessed already it's, Brigitte Bardot. I have a new obsession with the french look, how do they do it? Manage to create effortless, perfect, fashion combinations, always looking classy. Envious.

So sunny. Eeeep. September has started on a good note. Everything is gooood now, after me bring depressive in my previous posts I have now perked up. Everything always sorts itself out.

Also, my music box, hypster thing - I have my current favourite song at the moment, Noel Gallagher's High Flying Birds... 


Hope you enjoyyyyyyyyy. 


Buzzing for tonight. Eeeeep. 


Hope you have a good one. 


B x


"It is better to be unfaithful
than to be faithful without wanting to be."
- Brigitte Bardot