There's a light that never goes out...

Have you ever felt so confused that you don't actually know what to do with yourself? Well, this is exactly how I'm feeling at the moment, and I HATE it! Such a nightmare my emotions are all over the place. I hate myself for it as, I was, so happy, well i am still happy but not as happy as i was. It's like, when you're away from the person who makes you happy - you become unhappy and start to pick holes in everything and ultimately make EVERYTHING worse and make the situation seem worse then it actually is. ARGHJOKQWDDKIO. Why can we never seem to be content? There always has to be some sort of problem, or we have to create some sort of drama. Just, well just because... Alas I shall be fine, I shall sort myself out and I shall be as happy as I was. It's all good. 


I'm not even going to comment on revision, and the lack of it. I get that guilty feeling when talking about it, so I shall refrain. Thinking about it the whole country should just not revise then the grade boundaries would be low and BAM we'd all do really well, right? 


In result of this lack of revision, I decided to paint my nails! One of my favourite past times, it  was a difficult choice of colours. As the weather has been glorious I wanted to go summery but then again it hasn't been too great in the last day or so. Therefore, I opted for a mixture - yes for all of you that know me I never paint my nails one colour. So, I haven't failed to disappoint this time either. My left hand being "cherry tree blossom" AKA redy, pinky with "Marylebone" a light yellow, I've done my nails stripy for a change too. My right hand being "cherry tree blossom" and "32" a pale blue with a little glitter in too. Also stripy. I just love painting my nails, makes me feel so girlie and makes my hands look more attractive rather then looking like they belong to a 5year old. 


It's been a girlie day all round I feel, got my hair done, took foreverrrrrrrrrrr i usually like having my hair done but today it was SO tedious, 2hours it took! Painted my finger nails and my toe nails (bright, neon, orange again) - so yes, a pampering day indeedy. 


Wow, this week has gone fast. Too fast. Before we know it we'll all be back at school, sad times. Better make the most of the break, well lack of a break as it should be dominated by work. Highlighting the word SHOULD there. Haha. 


Anyway, have a good weekend and I'll try and blog more, swear I say that all the time. Haha. I'll make a special effort though! Honest. 


Have a good one. 


B x

Oh, it's you again listen this isn't a reunion...

HAPPY, HAPPY, HAPPYYYYYY. 


Feeling so content. I think the astronomical amount of scones, finger sandwiches, champagne, little cakes and earl grey tea i consumed over the course of the afternoon - helped toward this feeling of happiness. We went to a beautiful country house today in Surrey, for a late mothers' day present. (mummar LOVES her afternoon tea and i can safely say I'm following in her footsteps!!) The weather was also definitely in our favour, it was so nice, sitting outside, drinking, eating, chatting about something and nothing. I think we all forget how important it is to actually communicate with the people we love, it's hard to fit it in sometimes - in our busy lives. But after my wonderful afternoon i remembered how much fun i actually have with my siblings and mummy <3 


I'm so glad it's the end of term. Well, a bittersweet feeling. As i now have to work and revise as much as my little brain can cope with and more, which i am by no means looking forward to! But so relieved i can now have a lie in, see friends that i have been neglecting and try to balance everything again. 


Soooo, sunny. This has also added to my happy mood! As i've stated in earlier posts from like March, I'm so ready for summer, bar the summer outfits (need to start thinking colours rather then, black, navy, brown, black, black and white)... I cannot wait, I'm sure it's gonna be a good one. 


I've also realized in the last month or so, that it's so true - we always want what we can't have. I mean, i always knew this but in the last 4weeks it's become so apparent and to be honest I'm so delighted that this happens, shows you just how lucky you are. Even though you rarely realize you're this lucky until it's gone. This probably makes no sense, but to me it does, haha... Basically, I'm glad this feeling of wanting something your not allow to have exists! 


Well, I'm a little tired and am excited for my trip up to London tomorrow, hopefully in the sun (wishful thinking? Maybe? Finger crossed!) with some fabulous people i have been neglecting recently. 


Off to watch Toy Story 3 ! Gotta love Toy Story possibly the best films ever made. 


Hope you've had a well deserved break from the hell-hole of school/work so far! And have a good week(s). I'll try to blog so more as i have so more free time, as yes i've ignored my blog for far too long and I've missed it! 


Have a good one. 


B x