I will remember your face... cause I am still in love with that place.

Yesterday was exactly what i needed, popped into town to The National Gallery in Leciester Square, with one of my best friends. Was such a good day, we had a good look around the gallery, me just for pleasure, her for pleasure and she had been studying a few of the paintings in history of art. I really enjoy art galleries and the amazing pieces of art, all unique and have a story behind them, to some extent i wish i had carried on some form of an art subject, but it turned my pleasure into a chore which is ultimately why i decided against it, and because my teacher disliked me, quite a considerable amount actually and the coursework was a bitch... 

After having a look round the art gallery we had lunch, good old Pret A Manger can't beat it! However, London wouldn't be London if there wasn't something strange and wonderful going on just look... 

Yes this man had decided to wear a straight jackets and then chain himself up, he then proceeded to get out of the chains and jacket in just 3minutes!! I actually found it quite painful to watch, turning my head but then wanting to watch, it was crazy, he even dislocated his arm. I just don't understand what would possess you to do that, haha, he was amusing whilst escaping from the chains - which definitely has to be an impressive talent! God i just love London and it's weirdness. 

After that excitement, we then decided to go The Little Black Gallery just off of Fulham Road, we walked from South Kensington Station, i think we underestimated just how far that actually was, as did my iPhone, without that phone i would be lost. It's amazing. We didn't even end up going into the gallery, we both chickened out, they were snotty, look down their nose at you kind of people, just because we were young etc. So we took a detour to Stanford Bridge and had a look round the ground, was actually more exciting then i expected haha. 

The last few days i've had that empty feeling, but can't put my finger on how to fix it. Hmmm, i know there are things i should do for my own good, but sometimes i just don't want to do them, i hate feeling like i should do something when i don't want to. There are plenty of others who do whatever they want and seem to have no karma from it, it's just so unfair. Hopefully everything will sort itself out really soon, as i'm getting so fed up here. And i don't think it's particularly good for my health due to the fact i'm consuming so much tea, can't be good. 

Ah, this week is just going so fast. It's so unfair, and i guarantee next week will go so slowly due to being back at school... BLAH. Hope those on half term had a good one and those at school haha, but i hope you had a good week too! 

Have a good one. 

B x

I feel like i'm in crazy competition with the past.

Been a strange day - I've had that lack of sleep feeling, but i had a 12hour sleep, the feeling that it's a Sunday night and that I'm going back to school, the sink in your tummy and heart, but it's not Sunday and I'm not going back to school yet. The feeling that if someone said the wrong thing to me, or jokely insulted me as banter that i would just burst into tears. I can't seem to shake those feelings off... and it's driving me insane. 

So I've just been listening to Drake on repeat, over and over (particularly Closer To My Dreams). Quite surprised my laptop hasn't blown up to be honest...

I came to thinking that it really doesn't matter what you have, in a materialistic way, that effects people loving you - what i mean is, even though someone has expensive clothing, cars, houses, goes on holiday, buys amazing presents doesn't mean they will end up with what they want. It doesn't mean you're guranateed to fall in love with someone, or that the person you love will fall in love with you. See what i mean? 

That materialistic things don't really change your life, or mean that you're more likely to be happier then the next person. Of course a pair of Christian Louboutin would make me an extremely happy bunny, but they don't change how your heart is effected by things. It's all down to you as a person and how you handle situations, to effect the outcome of your happiness and what you want/deserve, and how the other person/people involved in the situation handle it. If it's meant to be it'll be, if it's not it won't be. As simple as that.  

I hate the fact half term seems to be running away far too quickly for my liking, and the humongous pile of work i have to do is just staring me. Hmmm, should probably do it soon, should being the highlighted word there. 

NOMNOMNOM, friends and good food, wow, i really owe my friends so much... Hehe. I am so looking forward to the next couple of days. Eeek. But it's bittersweet i then know i'm closer to the end of half term. Meow. 

Have a good one.

B x